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Monday Intentions Twenty One | Surrender and Deeper Surrender

August 14, 2017

Well, we are right smack in between eclipse energies! Just one week ago it was the Lunar Eclipse Full Moon, and in one week from today we will have the total Solar Eclipse New Moon. I believe this to be the most powerful time of the year, and the most transformative. Eclipses end AND begin things, but really, there is no difference between endings and beginnings:

New beginnings are often disguised as painful endings.

~Lao Tzu

What are you going through? What is coming up for you? Are you letting go of old stories? Is there a new understanding/experiene of self emerging? These things matter. The way this energy is moving through us is important. How are you changing? Are you resisting the change? Are you welcoming it with open arms? If we can sit alone, feel the power of this time it might be easier to surrender to the change at work. If we can see the bigger picture, the fact that Spirit is always helping us become the greatest embodiment of our Self possible, than we can relax into the fact that certain aspects of ourself must die as they are just being transformed into bigger beauty. Believe me, this is happening so deeply to me. Huge parts of my shadow are surfacing, showing themselves to me, as if they too, are sick of being apart of me HA! Ever get sick of yourself too? Yep, this is what this time is all about. Welcome it gracefully! Here are this weeks intentions:

 

Surrender and Deeper Surrender: This is where I'm at. I am in total (as much as I can be) surrender right now to what and where Spirit wants to guide me. I made a big commitment yesterday, one of the biggest ones i've ever made, and I have no idea how things are going to manifest from it. But when you make a big, life changing commitment, there is no way your life won't undergo immense transformations. My commitment was to be in the deepest service possible to Spirit and my highest Self, whatever that looks like. I vowed to be open, to do the work, to let go of ego expectations of how this service 'should' look like. I realize that a commitment like this takes courage, and i've been waiting a long time to make this commitment. I cried, and cried yesterday.. because a part of my life is over. I was grieving, and excited, scared, ready, and willing.  I care. I care about you, I care about the Earth, I care about our healing, I care about the wellbeing of the people and strangers around me. My love is strong, and it's the biggest thing I am working on: not being afraid of the love inside of me, and especially not fearfully resisting it like I have for so long. I surrender, and surrender deeper to LOVE.

 

Discovering my Voice with Fields of Study: I begin a 7 day online breathwork workshop this week. I did her last one on the Chakras and had some really powerful openings. Also learning to breath in this way with the intention of deep healing is so powerful. I've taken the technique and used it on my own breathwork journeys which have been profound. This workshop is all about the Throat Chakra and Finding our Voice:

"Imagine a life where your voice is connected to your heart, where your words carry your truth and power, where you can say what you actually feel. This seven day workshop will help lead you on a journey to discover your own relationship to your voice. With topics that range from learning to ground the voice and tap into the voice of the heart, to feeling the connection the throat has to the second chakra and birthing the voice inside that is waiting to be expressed - as well as taking a journey to past lives to uncover the source and help heal the wounds of the voice that you carry. You will also learn about different minerals that can support various aspects of the throat."

 

Inwards/Introspection/Social Media Cleanse: It's been over a week now since i've been on social media. I am so so so happy with my decision, and have decided to do it for at least a month, but most likely longer. It takes about 4 weeks to change and/or create a new habit, so I thought I might as well just cut the whole habit. When it's time to allow it back into my life, it will be a lot different. Being off of social media has granted me the space (mentally, and physically) to REALLY tune into myself, to hear what I WANT, to see who I AM, and to not be distracted by other peoples lives, instead to be very present with my life as it's going through one of the biggest rebirths it's ever went through. I am not even sure "who I am," and I find social media is all about "this is who I am,".. but when I started feeling like "this isn't me anymore," I had to give myself the space to listen to who I actually am, and take space away from social media, because it can be an ego trap... and if you read up there, I made a big commitment to BE in highest service to Spirit and my highest self, no matter what that looks like on the outside... and I know it is changing on the outside, and I just knew I couldn't allow this transformation to happen with social media present in my life. 

 

Trusting Myself: Major, major, major lesson for me: I need to learn how to just fucking trust myself. This is going on the Eclipse intention list, and it's going to be a big focus over the next year. We all have such sacred, and beautiful gifts to offer the world, but if we don't believe, or trust ourselves, they remain hidden. This is our MEDICINE to the world though, and it's our duty to share it. It is my duty right now to release my trust wounds, and to offer the medicine closest to my heart. 

 

Eclipse Prep: Big energy coming at us next week. Ill be taking this week to get really clear on what type of energy I will be sending out into the Universe as a way to harness the eclipse energy next Monday. These guys don't happen very often. The next one isn't until July 2/2019. Use this energy wisely. Go listen to some astrology about it. I love Kelley Rosano, each month she does a 25-30 min video on each sign about the energies coming at us. It's worth the listen. She already has September videos out too so we can begin prepping for fall energy. 

 

Heartspace: I get like cute, giddy butterflies thinking about my heart. I am falling in love with my heart, and it's pretty adorable. I love her. She has taught me so much, and continues to teach me so much. I am in deep gratitude every day for my heart. My practice is to honour her, in every  moment. My womb is next... these two are such powerhouse teachers inside of us. 

 

WHAT ARE YOUR INTENTIONS?

I would love for us to inspire each other. Comment below or email me at  hello@emalee-wildflower.com . 

 

This weeks song is so lovely, it's one that brought me deep into tears yesterday and opened me to a beautiful healing. ANYTHING by Peia is amazing. I haven't stopped listening to her since yesterday. Go Listen now.

Blessed we are to dance on this ground
with the rhythm of saints to carry the sound
We hold a prayer for the Earth
for the ones yet to come,
May you walk in beauty and remember your song.

Remember why you came here
Remember your life is sacred.
Remember why you came here
Remember all life is sacred.

In Intention Monday Tags Surrender, Deeper Surrender, Discovering my Voice, Trusting, Social Media Cleanse, Introspection, Inwards, Rebirth, Transformation, Healing, Growth, Change
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Do you really mean it? / Showing up energetically and not just physically . . The deeper I go into my own personal unfolding and reflect on the past, and especially reflect on past selves I see a pattern where I was only doing things because I thought they were the thing to do, or because it was the only way, or that I ought to do to be a good person or be validated. Now, when I look back and tap into the energy of that, I see that I wasn’t fully in it, it wasn’t heart based, it had to be forced more often than not. And though I thought I was doing the right thing, the energy behind it was communicating something totally different to the universe. . Now, it matters more than anything for me to match my energetic actions and physical actions up. Really MEANING what I am doing. Like when I show up at my altar every morning.. its not because I feel like I should, but its because its a REAL connection I have at my altar. It has depth, meaning, purpose in my practice. Or when I show up for my kundalini practice.. I don’t half ass it.. I want it, and I want it bad. I mean it, through every ounce of the ‘torture.’ . . Truly, we can never really fool ourself, we can try, but, why do you want to lie.. to yourself? Thats the hard reality of it, we are only ever cheating ourself. When we show up and half ass it, we are half assing ourself. Believe me, I half assed myself for so long. And maybe its because I wasn’t ready to dive in in the way I am now. Because it IS work. Its not easy. And I still half ass myself. But when I started realizing that when we half ass it we are communicating that to the Universe.. saying we only HALF want it, I threw that energy out the window. Im in, or I’m not. I mean it from my heart and soul.. or I just simply dont. It is that simple. . . This is me on my healing journey right now. Showing up in the most potent way I can. And meaning every second. I want it. I need it. And thats when shit changes. Thats when we get the hard work done. We stop skimming the surface when we dive in deep. Its a form of self respect. Its integrity to your soul. Its something I am working on everyday. Because I never understood it on this kind of level.
“Unlike beauty, glamour is seen but not felt. Poet John O’Donohue points out, “it has become the habit of our times to mistake glamour for beauty.” The great tragedy of this reality is that glamour inevitably comes at the expense of beauty. Glamour is like a fake flower. It looks vibrant from far away, but when you come closer, you see that its color is all wrong, and that it conveys none of the magnificent essence of that which it was made to imitate. Beauty, on the other hand, is a thing of great substance with soil clinging to its roots. It smells like the wet and fertile Earth from which it came and its petals, however imperfect, are imbued with a kind of radiance which arises from somewhere else entirely // somewhere unseen.” —Tonights insanely inspiring words by @laabejaherbs in her latest April edition of @garden.party.love 🙏🏼🕊🙌🏼🏹🌿 . . Ps guys.. im sharing more in my stories these days.. basically cause lately im too lazy to type all the awesomeness im thinking/reading/feeling/listening to. There is so much happening all at once for me.. so catch some of it in my stories 👀
we project our values . This topic has been on my mind for a while now; the idea that we project onto others what we value, or don't value. This whole concept honestly arose from having different disagreements with people. Not arguing, just honest disagreements. Through sitting with and dissecting the disagreements I came to the realization that we all have different ways of being, thoughts, beliefs, and acting that we value. We project those values outwardly. We usually respect the people who embody the traits that we value. But the fact that we all have different values means we are all going to look at people differently. And this extremely alters the common archetype of "good" and "bad" people. . . What I value and respect in a person is going to differ from what you value and respect in people. You might value someone who is able to make a ton of money, who is able to buy the material items that are top of the line and in style but might not care for feelings that much. Where as I might value someone who is committed to their heart, willing to look deeply at themselves and take responsibility for their actions; i’m not saying they don't make a lot of money, but it isn't the money about them that I value. You might value someone who can allow themselves to flow through the day without any structure, where as I might value someone who embodies a structure to their day. Some people might value consistency, some might value discipline, others might value working 60 hour weeks, etc, ect. . . What do you value? Do you feel your values are THE truth? How would you feel if someone challenged your values? I feel it's super important to address the traits that we feel are important to us, but to also note that everyone has a different set of traits that they value. We must stay open minded, and trust that maybe when someone isn't "seeing" a certain trait we have, that it might not be a trait that is in their set of values. Our work then, is to not judge them and/or project a "you should have that value" energy, but instead respect or at least be compassionate towards them for the values they do, even if we disagree. . . Read more on this, link in bio🏹
showing up for our Mama . You know, I don't show up and do the work on myself everyday merely because I want to be happier, or to achieve more success, although those are pretty much guaranteed side effects. I show up everyday because I'm utterly in love with the world. I show up because I feel its my duty, and one of the most impactful ways I can contribute back to this planet that has given me my whole life. I show up for myself, for the world.. in hopes, and with intention that I become the best possible version of myself, in service to our true Mother, in the ways that my whole being was made to be in service for. . . Deeply looking at myself is my Duty and contribution. Purifying my intentions more and more everyday. Remembering that the way we treat our Mother is in direct relation to how we treat ourselves, and vice versa. Why? Why? Why? Why? And Why? Getting to the deeper root of why we do what we do is vital in the times we are in. And when we think we get to an answer, question that too. We need to keep ourselves in check, and hopefully we have beautiful people around us to also keep us in check. We cant fuck around anymore. What are you doing TODAY that helps us move forward? . . One of the ways @katlinanndoyle and I are showing up for our Mother is offering an immersion where we gather together and get to know our Mother. We get to know her cycles, her seasons, the sacred plant art that she births at different times of the year. We get to experience our direct relationship to her and see that we are OF her. No separation. We call this Sisters and Cycles of Beauty, and tonight is the last night to register. Dm for more info, or click link in bio. If your HEART is deeply feeling the call, but finances are an issue, message on of us, and lets chat. XOXO much love.🕊🌎🏹 . #sistersandcyclesofbeauty
in the freeing, in the feeling
no words . this has to be one of the most transformative times of my life. Im sure many of you can relate. It seems to me that so many of us are breaking through some of the biggest blocks in our life yet, and seeing a way of being, previously not known possible, thats within arms reach. Maybe even presently here. . . Ive noticed I haven’t been sharing my journey as much as I normally do. And thats because it hasn’t been translating into words as it normally does. What I’ve been going through has been VERY energetic. I understand whats happening, as I’ve somehow figured out how to read the energetic current of my life at the moment but its not something I can put into word yet... and it might not ever need words. All I know is that I need to be ever so present with myself, and with life. I know that whats happening to me has never happened to this degree, and maybe even never at all. I realize it this might all be vague, and its because I’m trying to put words to something that doesn’t have an english translation yet. . . Its important for me to share where I am at. I love being able for us to support each other. Its important for me to share as authentically as I can and to not pretend that life isnt LIFE, with ups and downs, confusion and clarity, light and darkness and ALL of the inbetweens. . . I sit here, with myself, in this body, in this moment, blood running through my veins, and sun shining on my face. Hope in my heart, love in my soul, gratitude for the reflections life offers me in every way, and remembering to just take it step by step. Xoxoxoxo

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